you own me…
The last two days had been a roller coaster ride of emotions. Confusion was comfortably lying on my head, and it seemingly didn’t want to leave the place. There were so many questions, but all I’ve heard were stupid answers which could be utterly be considered as escape goat meant to save the person from harsh condemnation.
I’ve talked to some people regarding my situation, but there was only one friend who was able to give me… IN MY FACE… the confirmation I’ve been wanting to hear. It’s a sad reality that I’ve come to face over the years. I’ve thought I wouldn’t go back to this. But after some time, I’ve found myself standing where I was before….
BACK TO SQUARE ONE… after all the things I’ve surpassed, I’m starting all over again. There will be many changes I have to embrace, many pains I have to endure, many sacrifices I have to carry out. The process will be painstaking, for sure. I’m diving into the pool of uncertainties head first. But frankly I promised not to give a damn to the past. I have to move on, but I am weakening. One foot has to vehemently drag another to a very unsecured place. One has all the courage, while the other holds all the fears. But I’m certain that time will come that both feet will come running again. No more hesitations, no more fears, no more pretentions. They will stand firm and leap over all the obstacles placed on their roads.
After all, I’m still lucky. Those people whom I dearly hold have nothing but overflowing love for me. And I feel that, despite the distance.
